grounded in silence

what i have found out.

silence is the voice of the spirit

when i contemplate
it is what it is.

i would like it if i sank right into
quietness - but it doesn't happen
like that.

i just make myself available to the lord
and let it be what it is.

i have lots of thoughts and ego pops up
and sometimes it doesn't.

yesterday i was grounded in silence.

i don't know whether to be around people
or
to be around myself.

i am reading a great deal

i  am reading about the abbas and ammas.

i  was thinking about the life of a hermit
if i would like that.

i think i can't be a hermit
that  goes into a geographical desert.

a person can call themselves a hermit and
go  into the wilderness but be in a crowd with
their thoughts.

a person can be in the world and be alone with the
silence - be grounded in the silence and it changes
everything.

i think i understand mother theresa now when she
said he must grown i must diminish.

u have to go off to ur cell to get grounded in the silence
to meet silence with silence
because at least in this world u need it to meet the
challenges of the day.

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